It’s crowded in here. The good and bad, small and big, beautiful and ugly, jostle for attention, clamouring for life. Fragile lives, all. His attention means life, his disregard is oblivion, death. I am but a tiny germ, too weak to move – frail, nebulous – a beginning maybe, but nothing just yet. How is he is ever going to notice me?
I wait..
I dream.
Somedays I feel full of possibilities. I can grow up to be anything. A powerful king, a shy little boy, a drifting vagrant, a wily old woman.
Somedays I grow tired of this existence – this half existence. Am I destined to die before I’m born? Will my time ever come? Will he ever know I’m here… waiting? For in his knowledge lies my life.
And I wait..
One summer day as the yellow sun shines, I feel a surge of blood through my veins, red-hot blood. He sees me! It’s here, my time is here. I take a deep breath and I grow with his consciousness. I am growing …… taller, stronger.
He smiles at me. I fill his thoughts, taking shape and form. All others are now mere dwarfs before me. Then I’m walking, running, flying. He gives me wings. And I’m slipping out of my home, into a new world. A world he builds for me.
He is in falling in love with me. The knowledge makes me powerful. I give a triumphant laugh as I take charge. No longer fragile, I drive him now. He forgets to eat and to drink. He loses track of time. He sits lost to the world, consumed by me.
Is it days or months? Or has a year gone by? He does not know.
He looks up one day. “It’s done”, says he, “My book is done”.
That’s me, that fragile thought in his head. I am his book!
Day 3 of the #BarAThon Challenge from 1st to 7th August 2016.
The prompt for today is ‘Fragile Lives’.
I am with Team #CrimsonRush
Such a unique piece of writing! I read it twice. The yearning…captured really well! I feel connected. Thanks for writing this! 🙂
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Thank you Tarang. You would have gone through this, right? 🙂
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Ask my book! Would love to know what it says ☺. Okay joking…
Yes – for what you actually mean 🙂
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Ah…such beautifully put! Never thought that thoughts too had thoughts of their own. ☺
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Ha ha I like how you said that – Thoughts having thoughts.
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Ironic, isn’t it? 😀
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Thoughts also have fragile lives. This post gives a unique perspective to fragility.
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Thank you Anamika.
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aww..so beautiful, I went back to read it again after reading the ending, and then I had a smile on my face!
Shubhangi @ The Little Princess
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Thank you Shubhangi. I wondered if it was too vague. Glad the re-reading made sense.
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That was really a unique take on the prompt. I had no idea till I reached the very end. Well done!
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Thanks Rachna :-).
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Fragile thoughts… a beautiful read
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Thank you Upasna.
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Like others, it took me time to absorb this but the ending was phenomenal. Awesome write!
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Thanks Vinodini. You guys have made my day today.
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Loved it Tulika..so beautifully written. I re read it and it made sense.
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Thanks for making the effort Lata. Glad you liked it.
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Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful! Loved this take on the prompt Tulika! Autobiographical and intriguing!
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Aw thanks Kala. Yeah autobiography of a thought.
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What an imaginative take on the prompt and it read more beautifully the second time. Loved it!
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Thanks Shilpa.
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Wow, Tulika! I did think it to be words or ideas the writer was still to use for his book, but didn’t know it was a BOOK! What an amazing idea!
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You weren’t very wrong Shilpa. It is thoughts that grow up into a book.
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This is so beautiful! I loved this.This is the best take on the prompt so far! I loved it and it makes me wish such a book is within me too, yearning to come out 🙂
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Oooh thanks Naba – that’s some praise. Where have you been?
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It’s a book!!! Now that’s the last thing I would have imagined… brilliant idea and execution 😀
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Thank you Raj.
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Thoughts come in a flash and in a flash they disappear….leaving us in despair….The fragility of thoughts and the final destination to the creation of the book is simply superb….
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Exactly the point I was trying to make – that among thousands of thoughts only a handful turn into something big. Thanks for reading Sunaina.
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A refreshingly different take on the prompt. This one made me smile.
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Thanks Suzy.
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What a pleasant surprise the end was! Enjoyed reading it!
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Talking of surprises you’re pretty good at them. Have been enjoying your posts for the Bar-A-Thon
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Brilliant piece both in imagination and execution 🙂
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Thank you Sunila.
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Ah! Such a beautiful write-up Tulika! Brilliantly thought and well crafted!
Cheers
Geets
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Thank you Geets.
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As my son would say, “beeeuudaful”! I guessed it was a book! Very well done, Tulika. You’re rocking the prompts!
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Ha ha .. that sounds good. As for the prompts – some come easily some make us struggle. But they do push us and that’s good once in a while. Isn’t it?
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Tulika, this was brilliant. The hope, and yearning captured so beautifully. Loved this
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Jaibala thank you. I’ve loved all your posts for the BarAThon so far too.
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Oh, wow, Tulika! Just wow! Simply loved the way you weaved the story of a book; from being just a vague idea somewhere to its steady growth. Too good!
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Thanks Uma.
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The best post I’ve read in this challenge to date. The fragile thought in my head, a book…wow. This is creative writing at its best, barvo.
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Thanks Sulekha. That’s one of the best compliments I have ever received.
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You, amazing you. This post has put a wide grin on my face. And I can’t seem to wipe it off. Loved your take on the prompt. 😀
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Hey thanks Shantala. Good to get a compliment from book buffs like you.
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That must be the moment of truth for him when he says “It’s done”, my book is done”.
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Sure would. And one filled with a great sense of achievement.
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